December is naturally a time of reflection. We are reminded of the past year’s burdens and beauty, pain and progression. And, oftentimes we focus on the unfinished.
As I internally summarize and come to terms with 2017, one thing remains…the incredible pain and loss from the passing of Chris Cornell.
There have been many calls to action for tributes to Chris, though I could never find the words to describe the loss and confusion I felt over his death. Confusion that was two fold - how could this happen to him and why does this affect me so deeply?
I've often been asked, “Why are you so upset? It’s not like you knew him.”
While this is true, you don't need to personally know someone for them to have a profound effect on you. I know that the love, loyalty and appreciation I feel for him is genuine.
After recently watching this powerful, poignant Chris Cornell tribute video by Jake Bowen, I was inspired to create something for Chris as well, the way he created for others. Here is a poem I wrote for him.
the wake of mourning
buzzing
13 minutes before my alarm
the message…
No!
disoriented with disbelief
disoriented with disbelief
eyes blurry from morning
stiff fingers type
the unthinkable
chris cornell dead
headlines flow like a flood
Grunge Star Dead at 52
Grunge Star Dead at 52
Soundgarden
Frontman
Audioslave
Artist
Chris Cornell
Artist
Chris Cornell
I drown in dread of reality
sickness swirls in stomach
sadness swells within
No!
voice raspy and desperate
cries
unrecognizable and uncontrollable
social channels confirm
glorious pictures and grim captions
stream steady
unending unsatisfied
force-feeding submission
RIP Chris Cornell
this can’t be true
No one sings like you anymore
or ever will
your eyes even more glorious now
translucent and telling
pure and kind
hair the color of bark
curls like the softness of spring
this can't be the end
I meant to see you
again
tour plans
setlist dreams
living the songs
of youth
your rock and roll
your hall of fame
your future
your…
voice
romancing my soul
riffs of fire
rich and raw
rough edges
silky core
refined but not contained
the essence of God energy
filling rooms of fans
you made equal
lyrics like
flutters of fresh love
honest hope
never denying the grip of darkness
and its goal to mirror-image
you claimed me with your art
substance of connection
a heart vibration
of nostalgia
and new
forward words
chords to loosen
tensions of life
tapping into realms of hurt
dimensions of dread
kept hidden
even from myself
I was never alone
though we’ve not met
you were a friend
in times of trouble
a leader in community
questioning reason
flirting with freeness of spirit
guarding the miracle of creativity
and inspiring it
oneness
fierce but frightened
brave but buried
heavy but enlightened
like magnets we remain
drawn to you
we share the same
an artist’s soul
an insatiable desire to create
communicate
to be heard
understood
to understand
beyond the deep dimensions
that separate us now
dear Chris Cornell
we harken with honor
to your art
your soul teller
your spirit spark
photo credit: Paul Lorkowski |
Feel free to share any great Chris memory or memory of an artist lost in the comments below. Would love to hear about them! xo Monica
Beautiful words and tribute for one of the best frontmen in history.
ReplyDeleteThank you - I appreciate it! One of the GREATEST!!
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